i am worried...no doubt about it... with almost no means of communication except d net nd mi dum cellfone...(on wich i hate calling! and on wich i get all dese unwanted calls!!!)i am left stranded....
i feel like being alone once and the other??? i cant wait to get out adn tok!!but theres's no 1...dats all i feel ...empty.....silence....except d constant music dats playing on d radio ...and the neighbor's drums and casio...what an existance..!!!!
i cant wait to show the world who i am! onli if i cud free miself from these bonds...bonds ...mi friends....mi flesh... mi heart...i want the solution..i will get to the solution...
as i type dis...mi world spins....u nko wat dat means...im in conflict again....to b me or to b what oders expect..
its life...its mi damn life...i cant wait to get out of this place...i cant wait to b the queen inside me...i cant wait to be the success emanating woman inside me..
yet on the outside...all i show is a fake smile ..a nod, a grin, a laugh, a frown, a word, and yes a lot more wrds actualli....but there's nothing of that..what dyu call it??? ya..mindtalking...
its become increasingly difficult to converse without words....
mi eyes hav stopped showing mi feelings...people say all they see is blank i look blank ....in a daze.
i am dazed too.... im becoming numb. not numb in fear!
numb with these worries..
they dont allow me to take control of my life. jst dont.they wont leave me alone...unlike my friends. All of them...all of us....evri1 ...we're all so superficial.....sumtimes....and it jst drives me NUTS!!!!especialli on chat....we all tell each other "im great da"...wen we know we're not......
sickening....brings a lurch in mi stomach......gdfiotvwmiesh/....
msgin each other....well its no memory i'd treasure. Definetli not one
u kno what i want to right now! i want something! anything! jst giv it to me! right now!
u hav it! i need it! i want it !
o pls pls pls
dil chahta hai.
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