Conversations with the "master"

Tokin to one of my favorite ppl in d world brings a lot of sense into me.

We're very different, but its liek were two minds in one body, we sense each oders reactions nd feelings, its just .....just, ya ...sumthing.

I was tokin to him abt the different ways of getting my point across.
Everytime , he comes up with something i never think of, this time it was, if u dont know how to get it across, or cant , y r u even trying so hard??? dat person probably doesnt want to realise it ... or is fakin nd pretending....
okay, i had thot of that, but i dint bring miself to realise dat people wd be such brick walls.

He askd me what point i wantd to put thru. I sd , not anything at d moment, but previosli, wen i usd to try, it usd to be so futile, it was like d right words just wern't comin out.

it happens, but if u cant say it, dont say it! besids this sort of stuff onli happens wen ders no actual communication. u kno right - dats wat he sd.

i agree. Silence. i like that.

"so wassup, dude?"

" idiot!!! u kno i hate bein askd dat!!!"

" just to get u into a more 'now' moment"

living in d present moment. Very important.

whats goin on?

Yesterday, my father's colleague came over along with his wife for dinner(and chit chat of course).
So out came d china cutlery, moms silver flatware, the tablecloth, and the entire ground floor was undergoing a makeover. The oriental carpet was pulled out., the table was shifted, wineglasses taken out, (and so was d wine).
Completely forgot to mention, these guest were one of my favorite ppl from germani, a country mi dad used to frequently visit.
A country famous for its beer, its hazelnuts, and its beauty, oh and of course, its engineering technology. It makes superb cars.
So mom made spanish rice, my favorite , along with rotis and stuffed capsicum.
Mom did a lot more than just cook. Ill tell u y l8r.

Evening passed on to night , over food, drink , and talk. Took quite a few funny pics. Was forbidden to put them up .....wudnt have , evn if i was allowd to!

They learnrt how to make roti!!!...and i learnt a few words in german!!!
We tokd and toks abt so many various topics, from mi fathers work to his work to cheating in d xams!!!
His wife complained over a slight headache later. Apparently, the sun here, compared to their current weather in germany., wasnt doing them much good.
MOM COPIED MI MASSAGE TECHNIQUES!!!

DAMMMIT!!!it was mine ., mine, mi patterns, all mine,the pressure points,,all mine!
the movements, all mine!!!

who cares, my sanskrit teacher sd. Knowledge is not to be ket with oneself, it is to be spread. Im glad i spread it.
The world should have more people like my sanskrit teacher.

A delightful evening. Felt much more warm inside adn outside. He showed us the pictures of his three kids, and i learnt a bit of german and bavarian.
SCHMARREN!!! u just learnt one word of bavarian!
ya......i dd dint i?

Lindtt chocolates taste yummier than i remmberd them to .
yum yum yum

The man whose eyes light up from within, is soooo enchanting dont u think?

Dear self

I see you with high hopes and dreams
you dont build castles in the air
But you nevertheless wish for for the improbable

You're cautious, and rethink every word you say
Why? Why are you so uncertain.
Can you not believe? CAn u not be strong?

You are a good worker, calm and patient,
Or a barking dog, Or a yawning hippo
This chameleon nature doesn't suit you.

you're trustworthy, adnd you dont bitch
You're friendly, helpful and kind
You trust very few. Whats the problem?

Emotional, sensitive and passionate

Waging battles of words often

What do you gain??? Acceptance??

You are happy, energetic and intelligent,
Let that spark light within you
Nothing will ever stop your enthusiasm

Information comes from observation to you
Using logic, That's your way of life
But there's a lot more than what you perceive

You get stuffed with food and feelings
Stay healthy, stay in the clear
Use your heart, mind and conscience

FAce your fears headfirst
Break your shackles, you are mighty
Open your wings wide, you can fly

I will always be here for you
Just reach inside , and you will find me

Just one

One stitch -

can create or deform a pattern

One word -

says it all or is meaningless

One touch-

feels cold and clammy or warm and soft

One thought -

fills or widens the void

One sign-

enlivens or depresses a heart

One second -

can make or take lives

One lie -

can destroy or save a friend

One journey -

can be the dead end or the beginning of life

My life is a journey. I still have the choice to choose my path, or i can carve out my own. I have choices. My life is not yet over.
I have a lot left to choose.It isn't the end. The actual journey has begun.

a branch from the last

dat last post seemd too ong ...so i broke it off here...


btw...whch wud u like more, an empty or a full dustbin?


its all a matter of perspective
we hav an english lesson that teaches us abt d same thing.

like this - to a ragpicker, the full trashbin is definetli treasure.who knows what he/she finds in it??

for the richer folk, an empty dusbin is a gladdening sight
- either they feel happy to be away from the stink ..
- or they feel happy that they can thro more rubbish

attitudes. A world of a difference.

What hav u learnt from this??

We live in a diverse world, and that, one persons meat can be another's poison.

Very well said.

Gives u sumthing to think about na...

sure...wher ppl prefer tokin, sum ppl prefr chatting. Where ppl prefer privacy, some ppl prefer blunt answers, no matter how harsh they may seem

where ppl are emotional and sensitive, there are ppl who are cold rigid and dispassionate
where sumlight is preffered and where night is preffered.

where we all start is the onli problem. A wrong start leads to so many complications.

Where sumone prefers noise, another prefers silence.

once in a lifetime
means theres no 2nd chance
so i believe that u and me
shud grab it while we can
make it last forever
because this moments rili all we hav
everyday
of our lives
wanna find truth and wanna hold on tight
gonna run while were young
and keep the faith
everyday, from rit now
gonna use our voices to scream out loud
take mi hand
and together we
will celebrate.

sounds ood dznt it???
like it....wud dedicate it all of mi friends..

Mi neighbor used to say this - Arrivederci

Nd so shall i. Just once.Arrivederci.

stranger

I had been bsy for quite a long time. I din't realise that there were so many dangling with a loose thread.....
On graduation night, where i sat, i looked, saw , thought nd i realised that there was so much i had to tell them .HOw lcky i was to hav realised it on dat day, when everyone made themselves available, knowing that it may very well be the last moment together.

ANd for once, i felt good, hearing them, lisenin to them, to not speak . Just silent approval.

It made up for all that silent resentment we all had.

Im glad my life has people like my friends. Unlike people who act like strangers, even though ur a familiar face.
It happens. Whose to blame. Mom sd " just drop it . U will get what u deserve"

Mum knows the truth.

It works. Just drop it. Though obviously...at times it wudnt....what if two lovesick people want to contact each other, and they are advised that way, each waits for the others signal, with doubt and resentment growing day by day.

EXACTLI. C??? DATS Y I SPENT QUALITY, NOT QUANTITY TIME FRIENDS WITH MI FRIENDS.

u wer tokin abt lovesik ppl here....i dont think ur friends fit the scene.

IT WAS AN EXAMPLE. ITS FICTION. HAVNT U CIN MOVIES???

who hasnt? but good zula, u lisen to what ur heart says. and u lisen to ur parents. But ur yelling and shouting dznt stop

WEN I GET ANGRI I GET ANGRI..... NO1 CAN STOP ME. MI PARENTS KNOW I DO IT FOR A LARK, AND I DO KNOW WEN TO CONTROL IT....REMMBR UR "CALCULATED ANGER"??? DATS EXACTLI WHAT IM DEMONSTRATING!!!

taaliyaan!!! Taaliyaan!!! Bravo!! Who knows, ur changing dramatically!!! FOr the better!!!IM so happy for you!!!.Im sure you are very happy!

Someone once said - In your weakness , you can find strength.

What strength hav u found?

IV NOT FOUND STRENGHT///I HAD IT ALL ALONG....JUST HAD TO USE IT.//IM NOT MENTIONING IT HERE/

again...the same thing. Whoever reads this wil not understand it. We both know that.

STILL , DIS IS NONSENSE FOR MANY. ITS NOT WORTH IT.

o chalo, vahin chod dete hain. thodi kami, yeh chalo seh jaayenge. Bas , ab baat band karo, aur chalte hain hum

And there she goes, back to her world. Its a different place. It was filled with layers of dust, its shiny now...in many spots. She's cleanin herself. Letting all the rubbish out. Letting all the wasteful time go. Recreation.

Nobody believes me wen i tell them that u out of mind
Nobody believes me wen i tell them that theres so much to hide
u treat me like a queen wen we go out
Wana show everyone what our loves about
all on top of me whenever there is a crowd
But when no1's around

There's no kindness in ur eyes
the wa u look at me is just not right
and i can tell whats goin on dis time
theres a stranger in mi life
Ur not the person i once knew
are u scared to let em kno its u??
if they cud onli c u like i do
then dey wud c a stranger too

did i ever do nethin dat was dis cruel to u?
u make urself look perfect in every way
so wen this goes down i the one who will be blamed
ur plan is workin so u can jst walk awa
baby ur secret's safe
such a long way back
from this place where weve arrived
when i think of all the time iv wasted
i could cry


I shudnt have gone dat far, bt u might have gyessed what she cleaned.

WHAT ARE YOU DING HERE???? I THOT WE AGREED ON SUMTHING!!!

u know me, just let this out. were not gonna let slip the name are we???

HOW CUD U??? I SWEAR IM GONNA SING D SAME SONG TO U 2!!!

giggle.....dont get angri

To all mi ppl der,
thanks for helpin me whenever i needd u, thanks for letting me go, thanks for showing me mi wings to make me fly. Mi priceless possesions.
Its time for me to do d same.

WTF???? sumtimes, u get too senti RA. CHill DERS A LOT LEFT TO LIVE FOR. THE NEW LIFE AWAITS WITH OPEN ARMS. U MUST LOOK RECIEVABLE, NOOT LIKE AN EMPTY DUSTBIN

btw...whch wud u like more, an empty or a full dustbin?

An outgrown schoolgirl...at long last

The long awaited day arrived. With what a start!!!

MI groggy self gets up at 8 am, quickly does all her mornin jobs, and settles for a nice long mornig in front of the newspaper , with her breakfast.

MI parents sit nearby, chatting and plannin today's timetable, and how to effectively get me ready, wihth the minimum usage of time , space and most importantly , money.
(Here, money is of utmost importance. U wud kno, if ur a girl, if u dont, i spose u will get to kno wen u become one).

ya....nd as per the plan, me and mi mom go off to cosmos, the family mall nearby around lunchtime, to avoid the crowd.

The hairdresser i think, was a lunatic. He not only destroyed mi hopes of finally getting a suitable hairstyle, he also ruined my hopes of getting back mi proper hair!!!

I felt so disgusted, mi mom laughing her head off at the sight of me!!!...( for two seconds...till she saw the look on mi face). The hair dint look bad. It was straight, sleek shiny, and short, cut just right for a party.
The problem was it did not suit me at all.

We returned home, to realise that we had just 30 minutes left, in whic me mi mom nd dad had to get ready and leave to school!!!..What a blow!!!

Im rushing ina state between frenzy and panic. Iv never bin in dat state before.

ANd mi mother, gently brings out the lady in me. Looking at miself in the mirror, I really felt so different.HOnestly, like a woman. A real woman. NBot the uniformed schoolgirl.A real woman. Id never felt this way before.

Sans makeup, i looked good. With a tinge of lipgloss, hair loose, and accesories, we set out, trying to reach skool within 10 minutes, via one of the places i hate travellin through.
marathahall...adn its damn bridge.clusered with people vehicles, and rubbish. It can take u from 2 minutes to 3 hours to pass through what is called a "village".

So there i was in school. All happy, excited, and awaiting the night that would officially mean that our teachers brush us off their hands!!

The final photo shoot is over , With our grad hats falling, no1 feels the same.Not only that, wearing high heels, and climbing chairs ( i mean it, CHAIRS!!!) for the foto, mi feet will never be the same!!!!Poise.....a very imprtant thing.

Half past six

AS all of mi friends come, lookin absolutely gorgeous in their own ways, it was so obvious, how we had changed. Zokra looked so cute!!...ND ever fretting nishi!!! nd everyone else.
As our head lady sd - the girls look terribly stunning, and the guys???terribly eligible!!!

AS we walk towards the stage, afraid of our hats falling, tripping over our sarees, walkin properly, we finally make it through to the stage, amistst smattering applause.

I was so glad to be finally able to sit!!!

When being called on to recieve our momentos, i was praying i wudnt get mi cheeks all pink....but thats exactli wat happend.!!!! a bright pink cheeked zula walked on to get it , when her aspirations were read out to the audience. Being on stage is wonderful. truly

5 speeches later, we sang our school song. It sounded so perfect, not missing one tone, beat or word,one day we sang the original song. JUst for the importance of the evening.

After our oath, we move on to the best part,which was dinner,for the socialising ,laughing, and for a more informal,phototakin, gala time.

We went chatterin abt. takin cute pics with evri1 we knu...I GOT THE FOTO OF TUKI ND ME >>>CUCRBITUS ND ME!!!!! EVN ME ND V!!!ND PUR!!!! whoooopeee!!!! i nearli jumpd wen he sd....hey, comin for a pic???...EVN S ND ME!!!! one tight hug was all i got, but it was more than enogh!!!!i felt so warm !!....and light...evn tho im overwight!!!

All the hugs nd tears later, we decidd to make a move

One night, i felt like a darling. like an angel. like a woman. a true woman.
Im sure all of my friends felt the same way. Zokra, was already high( not drunk!!!)...im sure she felt so blissfully happy!!!

A terribly delightful evening, i must say!!!

in the midst of chaos

I was so bored yesterday.I was tired of studying for the math mock xam we'll be having tommorrow,so i logged on to the computer.

Our TV cable chooses a very appropriate time to go "FUSSSSS"
i missed all the roadies, zack nd cody. frnds, nd not to meantion al those dance sequences. DAMN!!!

SO on the computer i was.It's alwais bin mi aim to finish off the minesweeper "expert " level, every single time i fail within inches of victori. again DAMN!!!

doing the beginner adn intemediate levels seem so simple compared to the expert level.

Dint want to waste my time on facebook...with its 100n application invites.

SO i decidd to accomplish what no1 in mi family ever had, i decidd to finish off a particularly level in GTA vice city.

And again, mi game helicopter bursts into flames. stupid!!!

Settle down to do some taxi missions, ill atleast feel a slight thrill of killing all those people with my crazy driving.!!!

Here and there i swerve,people jmping here and there, with the policemen behind my back.
what a life these people in vice city suffer from. Such a mundane existance!

I was playing gyess my expression with one of my friends.
Basically all i dd was put updifferentt sorta smileys, and he had to gyess wat emotion i was trying to reveal.

Again, he showed me what others percieve from what we show. What he thot was so different from what i was trying to show him.!!! Same question, different answers. But those answers made me think, what he percieves of me is not what i percieve of myself.

Mom said i was an open book yesterday too... ok,.....she thinks im nervous every time i touch mi nose......i do that to push mi glasses up!!! sumtimes wen im nervous,
SHe sd i blush 2!~!! ...i cant help it!!!!being born with pink cheeks, wich glow more with the increasing stuffiness in the room.....how am i supposd to control them???

Whenevr a guy comes over at home, she doesent tell him nethin,,,but ya..after he goes, she'll definetli let me know if she approves or not!!!like im gonna date dat guy!!....

BUt i like opinions, wethr good or bad. The way she totalli disagreed me going out with some1.
i agree with her now. Remmbering all that passed between us , i felt bad for playing with our lives, mine and his. I feel so sad for him. I'll alwais be there for u, adn im so sorry for playing with your heart.

Mom was right, let them go when you cant do ne mor. I let him go.

OPen book ,me!!!!! arrgh!!!
In school i'm ok. Every one thinks i kno everything abt everyone.
What , am i a loose lipped mine of information??? i get along well.I miss being in skool!!...not gettin mi daily information...is disheartening.

Ull get a lot more in college!!....a lot lot more, not tokin abt ragging!!!
sure will, im sure of dat.

Zokra sd id b unable to handle ragging. I'm al for change!!!!

ITs valentine's day today, and im not feeling one bit special than yestrda. Im gonna make payasam for mi dad...ill show mi mom !!! i can make delicacies too!!!

Syupid neighbors!!!!, just wen i look forward to a good nights silence to do my work in peace, they begin to cook fish and oily food, or they watch TV with deafening volumes.....

YAY!!!!!finally finishd minesweeper "expert" level!!!
right now...d time stands at 363 seconds....which is about 6 minutes and 5 seconds....yea...but d satisfaction of finishing it is overwhelming!!!!! YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!

im so happy!!!!!

My horoscoppe sd- my beloved will respond to me.
" I dont kno if its coincidence, but ppl i dint expect to respond, responded!!!!!!"

stpid horoscope!!! makes me get expectations, and i see them all fall apart!...dad was right about them, just a few crappy sentences.
I dont start my day with them.

the misuse of the word "love " is so evident today!!!!

i chose a very good time to c d movie "devdas" . Cudnt hav bin bettter time na?

Britney sprears with "im not a girl , not yet a woman"

Enjoy.

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if uv seen the roadies auditions, based on the brutality of ur mind u wud rate them,

mi8 bro called them sick disgstin,
mi mom sd amrita, how can u watch all dis
mi dad dint bother
and as for me, i just c it because id like to miself judge the people who apply, and not by using i dont give a fuck or by saying who the fuck or nethin like that

nikhil chinnapa nd raghu abuse words a lot, but yes , they are brutal, and realli, according to me, atleast during the auditions, they are absolutely devoid of emotion or feelings.

Both of them are extremely hot headed, and yes, just to become a roadie, i wudnt want to go thru this emotional strain.

its amazing how some people wud lie just to pass the initila test and get to the interview. this goes to a guy who faked blindness. and to a girl who claimed to be a psycho.

ahh the roadies' journey. All the best to them, hope it isnt as tangled as the last roadies' journey was.

daily feed

im holding on a rope , about ten feet off the ground
im hearin wat u sa but i just cant make a sound
u tell me that u need me then u go and cut me down
u tell me dat ur sori, dint think id turn around, and say....

that its too late to apologise
its too late
said its too late to apologise
its too late

wen i heard this song....ya..i felt sulky.. but ya the next song.

we've got to work work work this out
make things right the sun will shine
if we work work there'll be no doubt
we can still save the summer if we work this out....

got me in a bettr moood.....

iv put a video here...but ya...d resolution isnt dat good....




i v bin feeling simply haapy, blissfully happy. these few days, rili hav no clue.
cud because, finally, i v bin noticed. naaah.... happiness doesent hav a reason.....i am haapy beacuse i feel like being happy!...

i like being this way. its peaceful.
one of mi brothers had dropped bi at home.
he puts on dis oily accent, and shows off all his possesions and knowledge.
knowledge???? its not knowledge...hes makin up stuff......takin advantage of the pitiful ignorance i have over model names, compani names, and diferent procedures while playing games.

he suffers majorli from inferiority complex - chek dis out he goes to mi neighbors place ...which is from were mi bro and him are to go to sum function - adn thats wen Neethi aunty askd him why he cudnt go to d place on his own- i dont know who was more embarrased with his reply- mi brother, neethi aunty, or mr akshay satagopan( the wierd guy)

his reply was- "well....... i rili cant because its too emberrasing for me to go my ikon, and i cant go in the BMW , sooooo "

honestli, i dont know how mi bro puts up with his attitude, its also pleasing to know that i was better wen i was his age.

He still suffers from" girl touch"!!!

I call him conehead. u kno everyone knows im sensitive, emotional, possesive and all that, and still they call me unflappable!!!!

him?? he's so shrivelled up inside himself i hav no clue when he's gonna let himself cry in front of his friends. people think its embarrasing...its actualli liberating!!!as long as theyr not false friends

venting emotions helps at times...yes im emphasising on the at times....

mi board pracs started yesterday....went off without a hitch...the teachers seemd to b doing theyr best...pushing us to get that 30 outa 30. i hav one more practical left ..which is on monday, after which the next event comin up is d math 3rd prep, but even more important,,,,graduation day!!!! i cant wait for it!!

one day where we'll all definetli remmbr. unforgettable.

i just wish we had a disco in skool. we could dance d night away!!! a literal skool party~~

ya...with oour heels and saris...well end up with leg sprains and what nots~~...but it all ends up in an unforgettable memory!!!

fifi gave me this cooooooooll dice set....i just love it....i kno "dice set " sounds boring....but what iv got is much more better...i just love it!!!..

thanks fifi!!!!! luv u so!!!

im happy happy joy joy~~
bt im also boring.

dance time now!!! mauja mauja!!!

o yes....getting sprayed head to foot with hydrogen sulphide is qiute an experience. One would never want to ever experiment again.
iv bin having this feeling that smthing real is gonna happen. i mean " real" real. its bin constantli comin in mi dreams.for quite sumtime.

later

with regards

zula

amalgams,

i finally happend to chat with one o my old friends after such a long time....in a wa we hav a lot in common..he reminds me of shahid kapoor...
ya thats it ..im not gonna say one bit of wat he told me...its nothing i must tok abt....

we are all here trying to perfect our life. ....not realising that imperfect rocks too!..it has its ups!
if u dont know sorrow u wont know happiness.... guruji sd dat....nd ya..hes very right

i try to find logic in everyithng....sumtimes i refuse to accept stuff....jst because its not logical...like d fact dat were all d same . it is hard to bliv.

long ago..i was debatin wid someone...weder were different or d same... nd ya
wat came out was - ya...inside ..were all d same...we do different things....fine..ok....

we rnt alike...how can we be....its not logic..

at times im a cold logic.....d next moment ill be a totalli diferent person....man sum1 shud rili studi these changes in behaviour....

i was studying nd i came upon this interesting love lettr.....written by mi friend to her crush. she askd me to giv it to him...i musta 4 gotten....

how mature we thot we were....puts a smile on mi face.... i luv miself.....like kareena sd in jab we met... i am mi favorite.

the crows seemd to be teasing the dogs recently....wat a racket they made...but it was fun to watch the dogs go crazy... as they barked , ran, whined, yelped, and tried to reach up to the crows.

how diff animals react to diferent to situations. either they try to overcome it...or they try to run awa or shy from it.

same people. different responses

well its up 2 us aint it?? to define who we are.

dumbledore said - its our choices that define who we are.

time to underline , question and answer all d stuff about groups 13 14 15 16 17 & 18 in the periodic table, more commonli known as p blok.

ya...its a lotta work. and a lotta time.

but no. its definetli not worth it..unless ur an atom belonging to the p blok.

oh ya...was helpin mi neighbor do some math for his xam , simple interest...one of mi favorite topics in math.. with his baby bro.....who was trying to reach mi glasses....nd in a last ditch attempt...grabbed the one thing which was sure to make e bend down....mi hair!!!..

it felt like we fot for eternity...books and papers flew...as we rolled on the ground...with me trying to get his hands off me...without making him rip off mi hair...

i dint kno wether to laff or cry!!hes such a mischeif maker....so i was a loudspeaker wen i was a toddler....but i behaved well...i was so slow tempered dose days....now ..im much more cranky.

but ya...bak to p blok....lookin at a good day ahead. im happy.

so sumone described what love was....

i happend to appear online on bearshare....a very big mistake.....being flooded with all dese im's and friend requests.....its not a happy experience at all......after telling everyone that ur a sum1 in thiis earth 5 times...one does get rili bored , bugged, not to mention impatient as the questions keep comin on nd on nd on. adn u hav to keep typing the same replies...and sum buddhoos..dont seem to understand correct english.......and answer in the most biased english..

but ...out of approx 25 ppl.... i found one...who seemd to be pretty interesting....he askd me d usual..if id had a bf..nd such....he askd me if i knu wat love was.....i sd no....but ya...watevr iv felt must b close to it..im not a many men woman....

i askd him what he thot it ws..i found his repli close to what i felt....but honestli..if that's love..how do most people in love ever survive????

here's d bit of d conv.. we had...

alpit: do u bliv in luv??me: i do bliv inn love

i dont kno wat it is tho

4:02 PM alpit: i think,,,,,love is emotion 2 feel as other

4:05 PM me: hmm

it is an emotion

4:06 PM but i dont know how it makes one feel

4:07 PM alpit: if we like 2 meet wid someone alltim,,,want 2 see 4 a while at any cost,,,relate everythin wid him.......

its love

4:08 PM feel happy or sad wid his or her emotion

4:09 PM love is mainly a mental understandin b/w two

4:10 PM r u there???

me: ya...

uv bin in love huh??

alpit: yea....was sumthing good and bad...will never regret it.

i cud relate to watevr he defined....
but the question still remains...

getttin mi feet on the floor

ther's smthing sweet , and almost kind
but he was mean adn he was course and unrefined

and now he's dear and so unsure
i wonder why i dint c it there before

she climbs this way
i thot i saw
and wen we touched she dint shudder at mi paw!
no we cant be...illl just ignore...
but then she's never lookd at me that wa befor

oooooooo isnt this alarming???
whod hav evr thot that this cud be..
tru that hes no prince charming
but thers suthing in him that i simpli dint c.....

there may be sumthing there that wasnt there b4

fairytale music.....courtesy...beuty and the beast

loveli music i must say...if i could attach an audio clip here...i definetli wud hav....

its definetli better than lisening to " crazy kiya re"....a zillion trillion times bettr....
meb u cant dance dat much to d badb song...but ya....its much more likeable ....

but ya...one thing it doesnt do....it dose NOT let u stop dreaming...dats unles ur a cold logic sorta person...which im not!!!!

so i cant get to reality when lisenin to dis song...which i y..i ....dont lisen to it much.....i was jst browsin thru d files to c wat music i put on d mp4.....nd i came across dis song...nd i felt so warm once again! :)

tru tru amrita very tru....how will u ever grow up....ders no dream man whos going to come!!!....ull jst hav to adjust!!!

BALLS!!!IM NOT DAT SORTA PERSON...I HAV MI IDAELS TOO....IM NOT GONNA B RIGID WID DEM...BUT YA..I KNO MI DREAM MAN EXISTS.....IM NOT GONNA WAIT FOR HIM....WHO SD??? I HAV MI OWN LIFE!!!...IF I FIND HIM?? ITS GONNA BE SO.... SO .....COLLOSAL!!!

dreamland again????

LOOK HERE, I KNO UR D MORE SENSIBLE ONE, ATLIST MOST OF THE TIMES....GIVRE ME A CHANCE......Y DONT U?????

dd u kno anger...helps people make better decisions???? in a survey it sd....people who r angri..tend to easili reach key points and make better decisions....
but the anger referred to is calculated anger....not hysterical rage.....

U TAUNTING ME??

no no, that wasnt mi intention at all. it was just a wa of diverting the conversation.but hell...wherever i go, u alwais seem to be willing to but ur head against the wall.what can i say

thats were ur illogical self comes into picture, were u assume mani things. where u visualise stufff that has , and never will happen.

ADVICE............ITS POURING IN ON ME FROM EVRIWER. I DONT KNO ABT U, BUT IM SINKING.

whoa..u can chose who and what u wanna lisen to!!!...remmbr d "wateva" guy???? he dd jst dat!!!
and remmbr......u can hear.....no need to listen!
just dont forget urself in d process.....dont forget that atlist fu ppl want good.

YEAH. SO THATS ALL FOR NOW?

ur going???? now????

STUPD SOULS TEND TO READ THIS ....

it doesnt matter.....who cares...the best they can do is fone or msg!...

TCHEH!.....I AGREE WITH U...FOR ONCE!

go on nd catch up with wat uv lost ok??nd dont forget!!!!!

ILL TRY NOT TO!.TTYL!!!

ps- to all dose folks reading this - its reali meaning less readin dis. shes alright . with her feet on the floor. this was a diary entri made on 12 november 2007 actualli.

she just decidd to put it down here.