Too much to do. Dad came up and asked why the internet was going so slow. Well, i didn't tell him i was downloading 50 items at the same time.:)
Tonight we're gonna go see a movie.
Mr Irritation called up today. And ate my head for half an hour. Kept talking about surat, and how she would never love a guy. and how he was the best, and how i needed an attitude makeover, and all his nonsense. I know what you're thinking. Why did i pick up his call? Cause i'd rejected it 14 times today.
Mr I is surat's friend, from UP. He's this guy who's crazy, obsessed, and talkative. Asks WAY TOO MANY questions, and soon you wonder why the hell this guy was born. Problem is, i'm surat's roommate. And he has my no. He'd call me up and ask me why he has feelings for her. WTF man, can the world knock some sense into his head???
He's not the only one behind her. Up2 says - if you ever look at your phone and see 20+ miss calls you know its from one of her friends. I agree with her.
It gets irritating. You expect a call for you, and many times you get calls asking for surat. WHat's wrong with surat's phone? It's permanently on silent. LOOOOOOng story.
I haven't told you about navaraathri, have i? And about the different things i got to know? I have an entire year to tell you about... oh god.
One thing that definetely happened was, i devoured Harry Potter 5, 6, 7. If any of you ask me ANYTHING (i really mean it) from the story part of those books, i'll have the answer to it.
Not like i'm a die hard fan of his, i just didn't have any other story book to read!!!!
I just watched Avatar today. It was awesomely fantastico!!!!(according to zokra) It came as a relief, to me. I've gotten tired of the love triangles, the true life stories, so it was like getting into another world. Which was so beautiful!! Amazing graphics, kudos to the crew, they really put up an awesome job. I've never really enjoyed loud noise, or firearms in movies. I find them really annoying. But this came as a fight i really wanted to see. Nature was so breathtaking..... so well done!!!!!
Anyways, i'm leaving back to the hostel on the 21st. Will miss home a lot. Comforts ahhhh!!
There was work involved too!!! If you think all i did was act like this pompous queen who demanded servitude, then you're dead wrong! Mom made me do so much house work!! Seriously, our maid chooses the perfect time to meet with an accident. The day i come home, she's hurt, and the day i leave, she comes back!!!! Is life being fair to me??? I don't think so
2009 was the year i had suddenly jumped from single, to being committed for an entire year!! Can you believe that!!! I am still in awe of the fact that i can still hold on to someone, or something, even though he's so far away, and not feel lonely. In my previous relationships, i used to feel so disappointed, with or without them, even though we were at the same place, same time. Funny.
Evolution of emotions, i guess. What i like the most is, My friends stand by me no matter what. No matter how many fights i've had, or how many times i've gotten temper tantrums, or how many times i just stay silent, i know they're with me.
Once, ponnu and chimpu had a fight. Well, it was a very big one, and when she came to the room, she was sobbing so badly, her dupatta was wet... anyways, point is, we tried consoling her, and finding out what the truth was. Ponnu and Chimpu are in love, you see, they've been a couple for more than a year now. And they pretty much, atleast once a week, have squabbles, fights, arguments, and say not nice stff to each other. I wouldn't say they're not mature, or anything. Chimpu's very understanding, just that when he's provoked, he becomes irascible, and downright unpleasant. And ponnu, picks the wrong ways to provoke him. What starts off as a joke ends as a huge issue.
So, what happens is, i'm usually the mediator between these two. Cause he trusts me implicitly, and she too. So when this fight happened, Chimpu wanted me to make her see sense. I ended up making them write letters to each other. It's a good idea, you know. Sometimes, things you can't say out are better said when you write them.
I probably thought i deserved a thank you. It never came. As soon as they patched up, they just became "fully absorbed" with one another. I just slunk away. I had Timpu to deal with. Seriously, he is a MANIAC! At times he's sweet, the next moment he pesters you and makes you go mad, he's typical vata. As of now, i hoped he stopped smoking, and drinking, but i learnt its not right to trust people all the time. That leads to crummble crumble snap crack pachaaaak!
He was a nutcase, look, i had to deal with this heartbroken couple, and with surat and with up1, who was driving me up the wall, and my teacher who was not-so-subtly telling me she wanted me to top. Timpu was not listening to what i was teaching him!!! I returned to the room in very low spirits.
Ernakulam was the only one there, and she'd asked me how the tutoring went. I don't remember what i said next, all i remember is i was crying, and she was sitting by me, telling me not to, and that here, the only way to survive was to fend for myself. To give myself top priority.
That's when i remembered what figgy had been trying to tell me all this time. That it's you who you have to care about. Cause if people wanna put you down, they wont stop. He'd been telling me to save my soft corner for other people.
That was sort of like a turning point for me. I decided not to be so interested in what was going on. If someone needed me, all you have to do s ask. I'm not gonna come to you asking you if you need me. And that's how things are. And always will be.
Ernakulam taught me sense that day. I like her.
Things at home weren't that good though. I remember yelling at my mom and dad cause all they could do was ask about studies & studies. Studies studies studies studies studies studies, it was only that. Oh , and rarely, they'd ask me how i am. Cmon, they're my parents! And i do say think you!!!
During my exams, they went to egypt. While i was slogging, they were out there llooking at mummies, tombs, temple's, pyramids, coral reefs, and enjoying. I felt crushed, to put it mildly.
Well, that part of the year was awful. I was depressed, i had to study, something i've been rebelling against since the age of 14, and many things weren't working out. Everyone wanted me to do work for them, teach them stuff, and i started thinking that it was just to make sure that i wouldn't get time to study on my own.. Well, one day, i jsut went up to the terrace, and i said," hey you up there, if you've got some sense, you'd tell these people to leave me alone. "
And that's when it came to me. I did wnat pingu did, Only, a amall modification. I barred calls, and went and studied on the terrace. It was peaceful. I liked the wind, the clouds, and most of all, silence.
There also, people who most annoy you, come under the pretext of studying and then go jabber jabber jabber... and that's when i told them, in a very non-polite manner, to shut up! Well, they listened!!! Point is, i had to try and stomp out people who kept stamping on me! Pimply was one such bitch.
Umm, i've been on an emotional rollercoaster lately. I've done a lot of things i thought i'd never do, like an "experiment" at home, or the dieting, or atleast trying to, the studying, the endless phonecalls, and ending of so many relationships. Bonds between me and people changed. When i thought i wouldn't become close to someone, i did! a perfect example would be timpu. When i thought i'd made lasting bonds with people, i was sadly mistaken. Up2 thought that i was a kid. If there's someone here who needed more learning than i did, it was her. I haven't fought with anyone as much as she has. Amongst our friends' circle, she and me have had the maximum fights. ( but we both love it)
When i look back, what majorly influenced me was music. Whenever i needed someone to understand, music was there.... it's like music's a person, right? but no.. it's just the way nature expresses itself i guess. I'm more into instrumental stuff now. I like it when there are no vocals, cause it gives me the space to explore what i feel.
"Do you, Graham Jones, take Samantha Jocelyn Tyler, to be your lawfully wedded wife? And do youi pledge to hold her...." runs in the background. My brother shouldn't be watching this.
Did i tell you i love fighting, as in, wrestling? the playing sort of wrestling? I do it all the time with my family, just not mom anymore, she's grown weak. ( and she tells me to behave like a girl)
I'm gonna be turning 20 this year!!!!! Can you believe it?
I need a big break from life. I want to feel how it is to not be myself. To live life from an observer's point of view. To just be able to watch and do nothing.
It's like the world wants only achievers. But of course.
see ya all folks!!!
