an enlightening chat.....

well ther are these people who try to understand who u r......nd dey do theyr best....
i dont kno wat makes me so uneasy.....d moment dey try to ask questions...i just shrivel up...im obscure...im a thinker....im sensitive....i am so much....i am so less too
well ther is dis frnd f mine....name hidden....who i rili thot was s much like me...in ways of thinking...atleast...he made ma happy funny sad angri...i felt so mani emotions at d same time......
heres a part of d conversation we had....

him:
to be frank

maybe

i dunno

to be frank

i dunno myself

i dunno wad im doin in this world

me:
nor do i

him:i dunno for wad reason god sent me

to this world

me:
same here

him:: coz all i knw is i haven done anythin gud till now

me:
id like to kno who god is.

who r wat?

nd who gave him all dat powr

him:: some1 or somethin i and u (if im not rong) believe in

me:
y d hell he dznt use it to help us

him:: probably he was the first one to be born

i agree

probably he wants us to knw how to use it on our own

to be self sufficient

to be independent

and to care for evry1 al of us knows

me:
if we had d power na?

i dont think i do...

him: i believe in god

me:
i dont ha d power to b evriwer

him: but still i will say

u do

me:
i bliv dat ders a force

him: its there inside

u

hidden in a corner

me:
no person...

him: waitin to be unleashed

me:
god dznt hav a bodi...

him:
probably

probably not

me:
i wish id think d wa u do

him: no1 knws

me:
i want to kno...

told u

i like to kno evrithing

abt death

about god

about mi duty here

him:: ul knw it l8r in life

me:
i cant wait

him: atleas im pretty sure ur born to do somethin gr8

me:
nd how cn u b so sure

him: somethin which only u can do

thats wher ur inner knowledge comes

one thing u shud knw is to believe in urself

although im saying all this i hav nevr had the trust in me

me:
i was wonderin

d same

him:i will probably believe u

but not myself

i dunno y

and probably for that reason god sent me

here

me:
it happens...advice is d easiest to give...hardest to rake

tak

e

him:: i agree

me:
i dont kno who to ask all mi questions ....

him:: i do belive that nothin is impossible

ask ur self

ask b4 sleeping

ul knw all the answers in ur dreams

me:
ya....dey all come bak to d same thing..

him:: dreams r a reality

me:
if onli i was god

him:: ur

me:
o rili

him:: ur to me

to ur parents

to ur other friends

and to all the ppl around u

whom u make happy

but i won say happiness is evrythin

u need money as well

yup thats wat i felt i he had so silmilar to wa i had......der r so mani things n dis world i hav to discover...i hav to learn......i hav so much to do........i hav to c so mani things in life...

im gonna do de all ....nd i hope to accomplish d tasks i wantd to n d chat...
adios for now

I luv dis song!!!!!!

Gotta move on.....
I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
It's hard to say, but I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here; I hope you understand.
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.
Don't wanna leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up
And I watsch them fall ev'ry time.
Another color turns to grey,
And it's just to hard to watsch it all
Slowly fade away.
I'm leavin' today 'cause I've gotta do what's best for me.
You'll be okay...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here; I hope you understand.
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.

[Troy:]
What about us?
What about ev'rything we've been through?

[Gabriella:]
What about trust?

[Troy:]
You know I never wanted to hurt you.

[Gabriella:]
And what about me?

[Troy:]
What am I supposed to do?

[Gabriella:]
I gotta leave but I'll miss you.

[Troy:]
I'll miss you

[Gabriella:]
So
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy:]
Why do you have to go?

[Gabriella:]
I just don't belong here; I hope you understand.

[Troy:]
I'm trying to understand.

[Gabriella:]
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,

[Troy:]
I want you to stay.

[Gabriella:]
I wanna go my own way.
I've got to move on and be who I am

[Troy:]
What About us?

[Gabriella:]
I just don't belong here; I hope you understand.

[Troy:]
I'm trying to understand.

[Gabriella:]
We might find our place in this world someday,
But at least for now,
I gotta go my own way.
I gotta go my own way.
I gotta go my own way.

Well ...this song reminds me of mi past ...where i was young ...i made mistkes....and i never healed .....i dont think i will....not that i was put down...i inflicted all the pain.....
iv got to move on and be who i am.....it brings peace to mi mind....

"Too Little, Too Late"

[Verse 1:]
Come with me
Stay the night
You say the words but boy it don't feel right
What do ya expect me to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you've changed
But boy you know your begging don't fool me
Because to you it's just a game (You know it's just too little too late)

So let me on down
'Cause time has made me strong
I'm starting to move on
I'm gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know...

[Chorus:]
It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

Yeah yeaaahhh... It's just too little too late... Mhmmm

[Verse 2:]
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn't enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it's just too little too late)
Go find someone else
In letting you go
I'm loving myself
You got a problem
But don't come asking me for help
'Cause you know...

[Chorus:]
It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

[Bridge]
I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you I don't have a prayer
That's no way to live
Ohhhh... mmm nooo
It's just too little too late
Yeaahhhh...

[Chorus:]
It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

Yeah
You know it's just too little too late
Oh, I can't wait

[Chorus (fading):]
It's just too little too late
a little too wrong
And I can't wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it's just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real
It doesn't matter anyway (You know it's just too little too late)

This applies to mi life....its jst d same....ther r so mani ppl id love to sing this song to...its so meaningful

Chinese horoscope

It's a fortunate day for you, with a lucky number of 4. To advance on your job, aggressively pursue an opportunity that comes your way at work. Because the Earth element is a calming influence, you'll be less likely to be temperamental. With your cheerfulness and witty conversation, you'll help to see that everyone has a good time at a social function.
Cool...somehow...dis stuff makes me feel wierd inside/....mi life is nowhere close to wat is being described...
mi life???
crazy...helter skelter...dats how mi mind moves....if onli i could learn...i fall into the same rut again nd again..lookin for the ultimate truth....to figure out wat im supposd to do...how im supposd to be.....nd to grow up into some1 evri1 wud repect...
yet ...mi life is shadowed....its not hell.....but its not wat ne1 wud call "the good life"

I suppose....destiny takes its turn.....