Viva el amor

That's called dance music. Perfect blend of beats and melody. Just perfect...
And there's this other one, from high school musical, titled " Start of something new"
A good video... And the music is nice



Went to a satsang today evening at this lady's place, and that's when i saw, a girl, she would have been around my age, only she had the brain of a kid. Our first contact was a flying kiss. As we


sang, she clapped, and as we
mediated, she fell silent, a kid, she was just a kid. Her eyes moved about, kind of in a disarray.
We talked, she had a sort of slurred speech.
I remembered my cousins. They had the same sort of speech problems. Thanks to them,I Understood what she was trying to say.

She wanted to be a doctor! I was so amazed, even a person such as her can dream, why can't I?
Why couldn't I?
Why was i holding back? Did i limit myself?
Actually, no....What was i not thinking about? Losing weight? What was I ot aspiring for?
Still, i felt that something wasn't there.

I have a guy of my own, a family, food, shelter.
My mom answered that question almost immediately- I'm on the lookout for the reasons for everything - from death to living, to life after death, everything. I was in thirst of knowledge.

I haven't found my so called 'master', but i've read books. I read, and i note down stuff. But when will i realise what's beyond all this existance? Why do i have to lead the life a common person does? Why can't I be different? How?

Well, the dazed look doesn't do much. People think that i think too much! Maybe i am, for I'm the only one in my section to actually do all the stuff i do. I get into deep doodoo, yet i caome out shining and smiling. Well, that's the reason I'm called zulie = zula + smily.

It takes an observer to see who i am behind my glasses. Really, i come off as a nerd, a boring person. Unless the first time you see me laughing my head off! I go so crazy at times! I can;t stp laughing even when its a pj

You should see me at home, I can't stop laughing at times, and i like smiling so much! So simple!
I get work done, i always do.

Time to take this off. Meeting a sick uncle today.
Dropping in and out. That's apt.

Foresaw it, SAw it, Oversaw it.

Well, the cet preparations were in full swing, 3 days before the exam.
I like it that way...rigorous few days. The last day is relaxation, and a nice juice before the exam.

Everyone thinks I'm the most laziest person on earth. In a way, i am.
I don't look for shortcuts, I've learnt the hard way that, there's no substitute for hard work, other than unreliable sheer luck.

The constant sle of exams is disappointing. It makes me feel like only answers mugged up from texts take you places.
Not skill, not talent, not experience. Just mugged up answers. Honestly, if someone were to pose other substitutes for these exams, along the line of interviews, or personal achievements, i do think the process would be fairer. It's merit, or you pay......It seems to divide people into good, and not good enough. I find it bad...... and sad.....people do deserve something....But I'm not here for sympathy!

Actually, It's been a long long time since i blogged. I used to blog almost everyday....and now? It's gone to a not even one a week new post. Another sad fact.

But CET was fun! Starting with phy with chem, and 16 question paper codes, ensuring that none of us could fudge, duuuh, which we did, we did all the mumbo jumbo, and eenie meenie, minie and mo, combined with our formulae, shortcuts, and logic.

Math arrived next, with one of my friends joking about how he was going to write it, and giving me a nice jhaappii on my back, we all went to write math in good spirits, after all, math was not anything i had wanted to write, i had done it for timepass.

It turned out to be a disaster, I could not finish answering all the questions, but I wasn't bothered. blah!

Bio was last, and it was the best!!! The answers just came easy, and i gyess i have to thank my the safe guy for that. His totally ununderstandable jokes, mostly made for me helped. Especially when it came to remembering laws and dates. Thank you, Mr AARRgh for calling me abnormal!

And we sat, talking about the different people we'd met there, amongst the 8 of us from school, I met few of my other friends too!!! One very very shy guy.....the supa dupa snoop, the hnky wunky man, and my friend, the brainy dud.

It was fun talking about all that we shared when we had gone to camp, 4 long years ago. Jesus, it was so hard to believe we did suck stupid stuff then, and haha!!! i just remembered i was nicknamed lata mageshkar, the role i acted in the play...i had lost my voice! It was too funny!!

On the other hand, meeting new people was never hard, i mistook a guy for his duplicate. Not his twin, a literal look alike. And we became friends, just like that!! He's nice.

Gugu was on fire today! And so was spoon! And R!
But I'm glad it's all over, and that I wouldn't have to go through that again. Glad.
Now, i awaited the phone calls, asking me about my performance. It gets bugging at times, but i try to understand their concern, but its IRRITATING!!!

Was chatting with G the other day. And i came up with the game - HE should greet me differently, every single time. And i would see how many different variations he could come up with.

Zokra just wrote me two testimonials. 2~ Actually, one continuing with the other.
She actually wrote it all out. I was so suprised to see it. I thought i was dreaming.
And i'm thinking, zokra and i - were interconnected, and were still separate, We're different, but still are the same. The same.

Its almost midnight, time for my nightcap!

Between us

Getting everything back to normal, when it is in a disarray. I just found out quite a bit, and it took quite a long time to chew it down.
What's the harm in someone expressing his/her feelings to someone else? Why does it backfire at times? The poor guy was teased, hurt, and he cried. I felt so bad for him.

Ok, so maybe people don't have the same emotional teaspoon. But they sure would have feelings!
And a lot seems to be going on, like the stuff in KANK. Exactly like kank.
And i don't think that is going to have a happy ending.

It seems futile. God save the soul!

We're all together, one of us just came back. Good for us!!!!
She's with me, now, asking me how much more vague i can get. Rotfl!
I'm glad I'm up to date with all the stuff, except for elastomer's and sarcolemma's rubbish. Atleast i have my friend back. LIfe seems a lot more worthwhile.

I knew this would turn out to be alright. TOgether, forever.

My online self and my physical self

Both of us are the same. We say the same things, but the only thing that is different is that one has body language, and one doesn't.

One speaks via her hands, the other through her mouth.
One communicates more than the other.
One communicates better than the other.

One of us is an image, the other, an object.

Let's talk about something else, shall we?

SAFE classes started, and they are quite tiring, it took me a lot of resolve to get back to reading and re reading 8 kgs, worth of text, a not- at-all-fun-and-not-the-way-hols-should-be-spent task.

A lot more than studying goes on in class, esp with cellphones, I'm beginning to hate the damn gadgets, it spoils the natural way of communication. Thanks to the ingenious invention, there
was a lot going on, that i wasn't even aware about! Well, I was in the first row, and if i so badly wanted to know, should have sat in the middle right?

So i got to know, not that i asked! They just said. It's a better choice, patience. A much better choice. I'm glad I didn't impose myself. Life teaches tough lessons well.

And now i have to cope up with another human being, just like me.

How many people leave and enter my life everyday? Just like my thoughts. Uncountable.

Me and zokra broke our call record today a straight 124 minutes talking. Well, that's normal, we haven't conversed for such a long time! I'm glad i called, she was pretty happy that i did.
She thought we wouldn't talk at all, i think we left gaps here and there. I'm glad I took tht first step, i knew she wouldn't call. After all, it was me who had left calls unanswered, and messages unreplied ( i don't know if that's a word), in the past. but hey, those were not because of misunderstandings, I just was stupid.

And I'm on track, the continuous phone calls have ensued, weve stopped using our cellphones, we communicate.

There's a lot that's coming back to me now, and we will always be together. I just had to take the first step, and it led me back to my old ways. together, forever, we're all different, in a good way, we make each other strong, we rock !

And that is the best way to describe us. The best.